Convincing Someone You Deserve to Love Them Again

                                                    Though episodes 11 to 16 are very important, essentially showing Carmilla trying to save Laura from her mother first by just telling her mother to find someone else's besides Laura.  Then Carmilla tries to scare away her mother with the charm bracelet to protect Laura from other vampires all while Laura finds evidence linking Carmilla to all the disappearances devising a plan to catch Carmilla.  These episodes move the plot along but don't really relate to me and L until the trap.           It's a trap,  Episode 17.   It's a Trap was an instant flashback to a moment between L and me.  So when Carmilla walks in and doesn't want to go to the party and would rather have one on one time that's totally me....

                 Aha moment-  a moment of sudden realization, inspiration, insight, recognition, or comprehension.  Ever wonder how something so little can have the most profound effect on someone or something.  Take the fable the lion and the mouse the lion has a thorn in its paw and can't get it out so the lion askes a passing mouse if he would pull the thorn from its paw.  The mouse replied to the lion why would I pull the thorn if you're just going to eat me afterward.  The lion replies I promise not to eat you if you remove the thorn.  So the mouse with blind faith pulls the thorn and the lion lets him go on his way. How could something so small have a huge impact?  Well for me something in episode ten gave me that aha moment and it was small.  I was really close to giving up on the series until this episode and that moment of clarity.           Cocoa...

                                                        So  I pushed play and the  first episode started.  I instantly identified with Laura, but she isn't the character I'm most like.  Actually far from it.  I will get into that soon enough but after about 10 episodes in I began to noticed something.  Parallels, in how mine and L's relationship started and how Carmilla and Laura's started.  Their relationship didn't start exactly well.  One essentially wanted to kill the other. Are’s wasn’t that harsh but we did have preconceived notions about the other like Laura and Carmilla. Not a great start but parallels were definitely visible.           First Impressions,  first five episodes , In the beginning, I am similar to Laura.  Let's look at my st...

     Carmilla What? Really? How? Why? These questions were posed to me by my wife after I had explained to her why I had texted to her "I love you. I miss us."  We will call my wife L from here on out. She was quite confused, she couldn't understand how something like Carmilla had brought about that statement.  So I first had to explain what was Carmilla?  How it had appealed to me? Then she wanted to know how I had found it?  Finally.  Why had this show awakened me to all the trouble our relationship had?       Let's be honest here I am not the intended audience for Carmilla at all, not in the least.(I made this statement only seeing the first season and I couldn’t have been more wrong it’s for everyone and it should appeal to everyone) It a show about college, growing up, and finding love with someone you weren't expecting to.  Plus all the supernatural stuff. In a show set up like a play, all the dialog happens in one ...

    " I love you."  "I miss us."  Two statements six words fifteen letters couldn't be simpler right.  The first statement "I love you" is happy, full of joy, caring, and passion.  The second "I miss us." is full of sadness, regret, and longing.  Simple, but oh so complicated.  How does one make a statement that knowingly contradicts its self?  When one has lost the first statement and is acknowledging that fact by the second statement.           Let's start with "I love you" a statement very easy to say or very hard to say depending on the situation.  You say it to your parents as a child all the time hearing it over and over before bed not really knowing what it means.  When saying it to someone who isn't family that's when it gets hard.  My wife and I met on the first week of college and those words were spoken in five months pretty crazy right.        Now the "I mi...