The End or the Beginning? (Not everything goes to plan)

 

        The end or the beginning?  This is the question I thought about after the credits rolled.  The story was over.  Laura and Carmilla got their happy ending.  So why do I feel like this is just the beginning?  Simple they are headed to the greatest adventure in life a long relationship with your soul mate.  Learning to live with someone is quite a challenge.  L and I were at a similar point in our life as well.  So I did find something to relate to at the end of the story.

        The first thing I want to do is point out how big of a moment the cocoa was in season one (The Aha Moment)  Why? Because Laura said it was a big deal. "But we’ve had kisses, and cocoa, and stars, and dancing.  That’s so much more than nothing." When your facing the end or what you think is the end you tend to reflect on the good things that happened.  Essentially this blog was me facing the fact that things might end between L and me. I was reflecting on all the good times together when we fell in love and that is what Carmilla and Laura are doing. 

        With the only hope and love between the two, they head into a cave to face Dean Perry with a plan just not the same plan.  Carmilla was ready she had said her goodbyes to Laura she had agreed to Laura killing the Dean with the sward and along with Dean, Carmilla was ready to die so Laura could live.  That's what she thought the plan was.  Laura however has another plan.  One that she didn't tell Carmilla about.  Laura, as usual, is trying to save everyone she knows that her heart is the last key to stoping the Dean.  Laura sacrifices herself to save everyone Carmilla, Perry, and LaFontaine along with the world.  

        Carmilla is now alone in the room with Laura's body agonizing over the loss of her one true match.  Carmilla doesn't want to live asking to die.  She is interrupted by a voice.  The voice of her once "Mother" back as a god saved by Laura's sacrifice.  Her "Mother" tries to comfort her by saying her sacrifice was what Laura wanted.  She also gives her the gift that Laura would have wanted her to have.  Her mortality back. (Now remember the advice that JP told Laura in the parallel universe. All could be saved when she sacrifices her immortality.)  Carmilla remembering this sees Mady in the corner and offers her life for Laura's.  Mady presents her with a riddle that she easily solves saving her and Laura.  Laura awakes shocked to be alive and also shocked at Carmilla's heartbeat.  The two head to the surface to live happily ever after.

        So everything went according to the plan right?  No no, it did not go to plan at all.  Carmilla had a plan where she was ready to sacrifice herself and Laura had a plan to sacrifice herself.  Even LaFontaine had her own plan.  Did it work out?  Of course, it did. There definitely is a major moment that happened with me and L that didn't go to plan.  Now, this is definitely a go with me.  Ok, so Laura and Carmilla's sacrifice is not just another profession of love both have done that countless times.  Really it's a profession of commitment to each other almost a marriage proposal.  All it's missing is a pair of rings.  Now, do you see where this is going?  Not so far-fetched.

        So my proposal to L happened on a very cold February night.  L and I had been dating for 3 and a half years at this point.  You have heard in great depths mostly about our first year dating.  This is two years later.  In that time we grew into adults by the time I proposed.  We could see the conclusion of our love story coming.  Like I said it was a cold February night and I had a plan. My plan was us going to go get ice cream and then go for a walk around campus as we walked we would end up right on the exact stair (It's a Trap! Kind of.) where I first asked her out 3 years before.  Solid plan right?  One problem, it was was cold and my future fiance didn't want to go for a walk in the cold after eating ice cream but she humored me.  As we walked I could see a group sitting on the stairs. So we went to another set of stairs and I asked her to marry me.  Did it go according to plan?  No, but it still ended in a happily ever after. 

        But was it the end of our story?  Heck no, it was only the beginning really it was just the end of chapter two.  Is the story over for Laura and Carmilla? I don't think so.  It's the beginning of another great adventure for our young lovers.  I know it's a cliche but it's true.  The easy part is falling in love the hard part is staying in love.  For L and me we are learning this lesson right now. 

        New mortal Carmilla is going to have to learn how to live with Laura.  She has always organized, a tad on the OCD side, and a neat freak.  Someone who plans everything to the most minute detail.  Based on all of the roommate issues from season one Carmilla is going to have to compromise.  Like Carmilla Laura also is going to have to do a little compromising on things like this.  She knows Carmilla is spontaneous and likes to lay around the house.  She has her own schedule.  Can the two find common ground?  I believe so.  We have seen Carmilla grow as a person from early on in season one till the end and I don't think she will ever risk losing Laura again.  Laura is now going to have a new set of challenges living with Carmilla she is going to be dealing with having a heart.  Carmilla will be dealing with all the not-so-nice things she did for the better part of three centuries.

        It is the end and what a ride it has been.  When I started watching this all the way back in January did I know that it would take me to where I am with L at this moment?  No.  Did I think it would teach me so much about sacrifice and doing selfless things not because they are easy but because they are the right things to do? No, but the show has.  Carmilla has so much in common with me and to see her struggling similarly to me helped me see my flaws.  Laura has been oh so helpful in helping me understand L better and what she deals with day to day and how she feels and learning to just be there not trying to fix everything.  I want to thank Laura (Elise Bauman) for showing me how to just be with my L. I wanted to thank Carmilla (Natasha Negovanlis) for showing me my flaws and that those flaws can be fixed and healed and that L loves me for me.  I thank you both.  Get ready because the deep dive into the similarities and differences between L and Laura and me and Carmilla are coming.